Another friendship day. This one felt more grownup. Some of us might never meet again. I’m grateful GBB happened. I was too drained out to stay awake for the friendship day/swedy farewell sleepover. And today was nitk founder’s day.
The next experimentation phase. I want this phase to be Israel Beta.
At times I feel like a deer in headlights and to make it worse, I am dealing with professional grownups here. I grew too complacent being the selectively social adult; that was my choice. Now I have almost lost the capability to deal with people who aren’t friends. But not gonna waste time explaining anything to anybody. Freedom. Choices. Peace out 😀
Dilbert Daily Strip: 2013-08-06: http://www.dilbert.com/strips/comic/2013-08-06/
If I am to have some semblance of work-life balance, I should be sleeping only on Saturdays. Will figure out the balance point eventually. The days I help to cook dinner, doze off with just one movie and 8 tabs open in my browser is now a productive day. Books, movies and tv series are not gonna happen anytime soon. And trips, well, money, energy and time.
Did I tell you that I love the team I am in and the work is much better than I expected? Cutting through complexity hasn’t really happened though. I don’t get time to miss anything. I don’t wake up feeling miserable about any working day.
Wanted to write something funny on worklife like Cubiclenama. Bulbing a little too much these days, so humor some other time.
This was what I had to say about worklife 2 months ago:
Birds chirping, dogs barking- this sound of the world sleeping was my most favorite sound in nitk. I try to listen better now; automobile noise. A sweater and shawl and blanket. No time for pillows. Or twitter. Scenes changed. But looks like I haven’t.
Spent a couple of hours today cribbing to anybody who would listen. And I have to consciously tell myself ‘this too shall pass’ when I feel bitter being a corporate bitch. The wise old me! So decided to take a college-ish niteout for kicks. So here I am, listening to endaro mahanubhavulu on loop at 4am, considering a job in Thar desert or a career in literature or sneaking into EWB somehow already. But I am too lazy to be productive so ignore that. Funny, today was the day Flipkart delivered my Don Quixote paperback to my office. 800 pages. I still have the MUST READ ebooks folder and its shortcuts as old as my Sammy plus many more music, movie, docu folders mocking me. And to think that an ethical hacking book is haunting me. Huh.
People here, to my slight horror are much better at reading faces and body language than the college crowd I loved getting lost in. Ofcourse they are. And I cannot bluff. Cheeky quotes can only get me so far. Do you wanna know the funniest part? In the midst of all this and career crises and apartment searches and no work-life balance and the ends and endlessness what I miss the most are my floaters. I swear. I don’t feel liberated enough in any other footwear!
The reason for this rant was very silly: being given some theoretical stuff to study. It is not the lab or the uprooting that bothers me the most, but having to study! I am a lost cause.
Trust me, I like this job otherwise. The office, the people, the food, mentors who are fun to be with, and friends. And getting the mysteries and possibilities of this job unraveled slowly.
On a serious note, there are times I feel terribly alone and wonder what I’m gonna do for the rest of the time. Then I divert my thoughts to my worklife plans: anytime chaat, pizza and nightwalks and weekend trips with old friends and plummeting into a bean bag with a book and spending time at the park and being up to date on all the series and movies, more single serving friends to be made, and all the neighborhood dogs to be petted….then internet happens. My Sammy, sometimes I want my lappy to be gone. Maybe that will trigger a new beginning.
See, I get lucky :).
1. How do blind people eat, to be more specific, at a hotel?
2. Watching beachsideblues flourish, sometimes I feel like replying to certain posts. But just like anything else now, priorities…this is another world, that was a looong time ago.
3.I have an address now, a house to come back to. The beanbag sums it up.
4.Shishu Mandir. Great to know that such initiatives and options exist.
5. Boss-dude Popsie and sado and pingu, thank you. 13. Corporate slavedom is a walk in the park because of all of u 🙂